"A best friend is like an angel who has earned its wings but still chooses to stay on Earth-just to be near you, guiding you in your ways, and blessing your days."
Anonymous

My aspiration to be an Obstetrician

We live in a little cottage where the sun manages to radiate luminously through our house and illuminate all the dark places. It seems to dance around and shine upon our family pictures and even on my three year old brother attempting to be Bach on the piano and my little sister singing “Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star” in the highest soprano voice her little lungs will allot her. As the sun travels through our house my other siblings are reading or sword fighting while my parents are preparing breakfast. Each day our family is filled with commotion and joy, sadness and hope. We begin each day anew and end each day with thankfulness.
I am the oldest of six children in our family of two girls and four boys. My parents each come from a large family. During all this commotion brought about by the sun rising we nevertheless find time to sit for dinner, or in this case breakfast, where new family news is usually distributed. As has been the case for the past few years my mother has had a new baby each progressing year. When I look around our breakfast table I see the usual faces of my little brothers and my little sister and it makes me think of why I am thankful for my family and why I want to help others. In the past few years I have decided to pursue my dream of becoming a physician in the field of obstetrics.
The aspiration I have to become an obstetrician started two siblings ago, the way I count it. It was the summer before last when my parents sat my three brothers and me down in the living room and told us mom was going to have another baby. At the time my mom had an amazing obstetrician who walked her through everything and even met the family. While watching her and seeing what she did for mom I started to think about the field of obstetrics, but it was only in the back of my mind. At the time I wanted to be a General Surgeon in the ER, not an obstetrician.
A few months later my mom was going to a usual check up for the baby and she had a really bad feeling. The baby hadn’t moved for quite a while and she knew something was wrong. My mom ended up calling the doctors and they told her to come in immediately. I was at home babysitting my brothers when my dad called saying that they were going to be a while because mom was having an emergency c-section. It tuned out that my little sister had a true knot in her umbilical cord and was dying. After a few hours and a few rosaries my dad called and told all of us that mom was sleeping and we had a new little sister. The obstetrician and her team had saved my little sister and my mom.
Another year passed and my parents sat us down again to tell us that mom was pregnant with another boy. When my mom was pregnant we found out she might have cancer. The doctors tried to give her options and one of the options was the erroneous idea that she would kill her own child. The other physicians helped her and she carried to full term cancer free. When my mom was pregnant with my little brother she had really low water and had to have frequent appointments. During one of the appointments I went with my mom and it was the turning point in my dreams for my life in the future. The obstetric nurse let my mom and me listen to the heartbeat of my little brother and I knew at that time what I wanted and had to do. I knew that I wanted to become and obstetrician and to help mothers with their pregnancies, especially those with complications in their pregnancy.
This past year we found out that my mom’s cousin and his wife are expecting twins. As her pregnancy progresses the doctors are afraid she might not carry to full term. Her physician and family have kept her going and she is doing well. The fact that an obstetrician can have such a tremendous impact on the mother and show her the true meaning of life and the value of family is remarkable.
Growing up with such a loving , compassionate and large family has contributed a great deal to what I want to be in the future. I cannot see my life without children or without helping others in need. I want to be there at the beginning to help them experience the true meaning of life that I have grown up with. Waking up each morning to all my little brothers and sister running around or listening to the questions that they ask, no matter how silly they may be is joyful. There is something very peaceful about having a family surrounding you. I want to do something worthwhile and see the mother’s face when she holds her baby for the first time. Or comfort her when she needs support through tragic news. The healing that you can practice in the science of medicine with compassion is a human experience beyond the boundaries of every culture and society. I don’t think this is an overly romantic point of view. I think it’s the passion that lights the fire of every healers heart and keeps them going through the drudgery of everyday. It’s a spark in all doctors that can always be fanned and renewed. My family has showed me what a family truly is through the good and the bad and to embrace and protect life, no matter how small that life may be. It is because of my family and those I love why I aspire to be an obstetrician.

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This is my madness...

Lack of faith within the world

Cardinal Newman once stated that there are two beliefs, a belief from reason and a belief on faith. Newman stated that neither of these are separate, rather they are correlating. Within our modern day there are many who say that faith has nothing to do with anything. They even go to the point of saying that there is no God, or that God will understand their own whimsical wishes and let them do as they please. There is obviously a lack of faith, reason and virtue within this age and that deficiency did not just spring up. Faith has been deteriorating for many years and is now especially evident within this era. There is a lack in family life and the dignity of a human being has been twisted to mean whatever the speaker intends. The younger generation is now killing off their elders and strangely enough legally killing their own young. Modern society has fallen and is awaiting its status next to Rome’s Great Fall. One of the most distressing things is that our society believes that the true freedom of a woman and her rights is her “right” to legally kill her own child. Abortion is one of the most appalling falls that our world has had and shows a complete dearth in faith and all virtue.
In the days before this deterioration began, doctors were exemplary. They were the ones that saved lives. Now there are doctors who save lives and those that terminate them. Just one generation before me, no one ever dreamed that you would be able to walk into a facility that told you the clump of cells can be torn up and all your problems will go away. No one believed that judges would pass laws stating it is not mandatory to have an ultra sound before an abortion. Recently in Okalahoma“ A judge overturned a law that required women seeking an abortion to receive an ultra sound and a doctors description of the fetus.”. (“Oklahoma: Abortion Law Overturned” , 19th August 2009, Associated press, NY Times). Ignorance is most definitely not bliss. In our present era ignorance is what many run by. They do not reason, many don’t have faith and others show a complete disregard to all virtues. The debate on whether or not to use federal tax money to cover abortion within health benefits wages on. In 1973 the Row vs. Wade was the first breaking point allowing legal abortions for any condition. If this health benefit were to pass it “would result in the greatest expansion of abortion since Roe vs. Wade;” (Douglas D. Johnson, Legislative director of the National Right to Life Committee, NY Times). For the government, abortion is just another check box on a bill, another law to pass and of no consequential meaning to them. Surgical abortions are not the only type of termination that is being debated anymore. Most recently, “Italy approved the use of the abortion drug RU-486 late Thursday [30th or 23rd of July 2009] capping years of debate and defying opposition from the Vatican…”( Italy: Abortion drug Ru-486 receives approval, NY Times, July 31st 2009).
As in everything within life there are two sides to the story. Among the Pro abortion side they believe that such people that are Pro-life are keeping their group in the dark about all other issues concerning life. The arguments being put out by such a liberalistic world all have the same underlying notion, that is “It is her Choice or her right.”. Many among the pro abortion side believe that women are being oppressed and their time to speak up and stand out is on the one issue that goes completely against our dignity as a woman. Such people that are pro-abortion are praising Dr. Tiller as a hero saying he was right to do what he had died for. They believed that the abortion practice is a way of liberating women from the burden of unwanted pregnancies and from the oppression of men. How honestly wrong it is to have such a hate for God, oneself and all that has been created. Faith would allow them to see the compliment of a man and woman; it would allow them to see the actual love of a family and people around them instead of this mediocre love for only fornicated passion that is being thrust into their faces. “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things that are not seen.” Heb. II:I. Our world only sees what may be laid before them in a material form. If it cannot be put down in front of them in a material form then it means nothing to them. If there is something which goes against their ‘consciences’ then it is no their conscience that is inadequately formed, rather it is the truth that must be wrong. That is the sad irony of our modern world.
One knows that there is a lack of faith within the world when a mother is content with killing her child within her womb. Faith in God and even the faith in those who hold our trust has been depleted. All our society, rather our entire world has succumb to the notion that the murder of an unborn child is quite fine. When one looks around one is able to see that abortion is thought as more of a choice and right than a life altering decision. A choice is when you think of having chocolate pudding or the carrot snack. Not when one chooses to either carry their child to full term or to have their child murdered and their bones numbered. It is obvious then that the person does not have faith.
“ Faith does not make things easy-it makes them possible!” (Anonymous, faiths Little Instruction Book II). Hardships come and hardships go, it is when one realizes it and decides to take up their cross or to flee into ruins. Faith lies within God; it has obedience for something that is greater than ones self and a courage that stands out among many. A world that lacks faith has nothing, they are to fall into habits of damnation and drag many down with them. As a result, a faithless world along with a complete lack of virtue in most, if not all people, will carry on despondently falling deeper into the realm of Lucifer.

Emorantag

Crimson liquid devours all,
seeping through the clay.
Expelled from the gash of a loathed man’s body .
Cries of despair illuminate the air.
The blood licks the blades, forever there they are laid.
His body of sleek wood, his head of an iron point,
expelled from his love, heaving through the air,
he searches as a ghost for an inhabitant.
Upon finding a worthy component
he lays upon the body, slowly devouring all
life within the mortal’s being.
Their webs previously prepared,
mortals lives conceived by most unlikely women.
By mistresses, three all to take the past,
the present and the future and one, all that may be.
Gemtyn to compose the present, Alvier the past,
and Olpenice the future.
Leuron to create all that may become.
Spinning webs, they guide mortals lives.
Never tempted by the guidance of another.
Creating destinies for the mortals of the world, and two
gods whose ethics mortals bide by.
The god Khyninave to rule o’er the righteous.
Another whose wickedness overshadows
the minds of mortals.
Feeding upon the bodies of men as a plague,
he enters their minds, and seeps into
their nations corrupting all.
Zhirchatove resides in the hearts of all vulnerable men.
Devouring the righteous he drags them down
with him to suffer perpetually.
Between Olpenice’s fingers wrought an unsullied web.
“Fresh blood strewn into being on the eve of Luprial*
Mothers tears to be shed, the culmination of breath.*
The ghost of her corpse shall be submitted.
The king born, son of Meiquer and descendant of
Medagalia.
Emorantag’s kingdom shall extend past Medagalia.
He shall rise and rule over all nations.
Emorantag in two beings, neither dying nor eternal.
Of such a pure fate and a sheer web
all that is in store is the overpowering of another.
The black web shall take the place of an inept fate.
Nevermore shall it only be possible.
Neither of the gods shall rule over his will.
His heart will be consumed, his hatred shall overpower.
Lover’s hearts shall be broken,
mother’s garments strewn with falling tears.
Yet all will not be lost .
His lover, the beauty of nature,
the sole descendant of Vertenia,
and the daughter of an ill father.
Melliel’s inheritance based upon a most desolate death.
Her father, whose dear life passed with each falling
breath.
In the night he had perished, crowning a daughter
with a place for a king.
Another watches her, a queen he by now has.
Her age has grown with time and his realm failing.
The kingdom of Mondeon ruled by Grisom descending.
His queen, Karmala, loathed and unable to conceive.
Four women presiding over all earthly actions.
They inhabit a world their own, a vast dimension.
Delicate structures of threads, woven together,
lives and lovers connected.
All to perish with the desires of the rogue.
Twisting and turning as serpents the webs
flowed amongst Olpenice’s fingers.
All that lay in store are the forlorn destinies
of adversaries and kin.
“Grisom’s covetousness of Melliel shall be broken
with the falling of his legions.
Zhirchatove seizes his chance, he subjugates
Grisom’s meager being.
Zhirchatove uses the man
as an instrument in finishing his will.
Bearing black wings he takes her away,
Nevermore shall her voice ascend as the seraphim’s .
Zhirchatove’s spirit resides within Grisom’s being.
His sword rose, lifted to the heart of Melliel
it swept her garments.
Emorantag watched, his entire being filled with
rage, his heart filled with wretchedness.
Forgetting all else he ran to her,
only to realize in the end she had already gone.
She knew it was done, there wasn’t a future.
She had grasped Grisom’s hand and drove the
sword into her breast.
The lover’s body spewed the rivers of crimson.
Standing forlorn ,never able to rule a nation,
Grisom’s conceitedness blanketed and overshadowed
his mind.
Melleils life diminished, the will of Grisom not foreseen
by Zhirchatove.
No longer had Zhirchatove inhabited Grisom’s being,
Looking up Zhirchatove saw the asinine deed of Grisom.
The only action Grisom took was of his own benefit.
Clasping the blade with the same feeble hand
that lived only to eradicate,
the blade rose and fell on the man whose kingdom had no heir.
The earth now strewn with the cowardly
blood of an inept king.
Fleeing her existence, the lover dead,
the saboteur diminished.”
Alvier’s fingers rewound an old web.
Replenishing it she sees all events past.
“Lying beneath glistening sheath it was drawn,
Luster of the silver shone beneath the sun.
Valliant hand of it’s possessor held it’s body.
It’s fate chosen, it’s will of another.
Though the war wages continuously,
The start of it is all only a vague memory,
a distant past.
Vertenia had no heir, except for the lowly daughter .
Ripe for the plucking Melleil queen to the kingdom.
Her king to be chosen, all seemed so clear.
Her lover to be her king, Emorantag to rule over his vast kingdom
along with hers.
Grisom’s plans were of another sort.
The falling kingdom which he ruled had only been
inherited by the peculiar death of his father to be.
The sole hope he had in the salvation
of his kingdom was to claim another.
Grisom’s war was to be waged by the murdering
of an enemies father, and the beneficial ridding
of old queen to make way for a new one with child.”
Between Leuron’s fingers spins a web of deceit and betrayal.
Nevermore shall Emorantag crave the betrothal
of Mellial, nor the son.
His desire for power shall lead him on a fresh path.
“Ill fated shall this one be, damned, hopeless and ruined.
Condemned never to know the joys of true love.
Glorious in action, and poised in every other manner,
his pride will be the justice he deserves.
Ruling over a nation only to have those whom he rules
perish in their own agony and narcissism.
His kingdom shall crumble beneath itself,
whose only redeemer shall be the begotten
son of their liberator.
Born of ones whose streaming blood
flows as pure as spring rivers.”
Gemtyn’s eyes watched the events unfurling within her webs.
Every moment that passed was woven into Alvier’s hands.
Grisom’s eyes had followed her long enough,
Too long has he endured a hoary spouse,
one who is unable to produce the lone request he had.
Too long has he waited for an heir.
Grisom’s infatuation has obscured his mind.
In the depths of the night he takes his action.
Pursuing his obsession,
fulfilling his passions,
and creating the heir Karmala never wrought.
Lingering in her bed chamber he anticipates her coming.
In the depths of the night his arms embrace her
from behind, his hands in hers.
Grisom’s body slowly moving with hers.
His lips caressing her neck, brushing her skin.
Melleil in such ecstasy sought to see his face,
the face of her beloved Emorantag.
The candle light illuminated the room, his true
character shone before her. Blackened circles lay
beneath his eyes. His body deformed.
His breath drown with a vinous stench.
Devouring all reason with every drop consumed.
That of a vile conceited face was drawn by the flame
of the candle upon her eyes.
Her lips expelled a scream of terror.
His hands left their pleasuring deed,
now clasped about her neck.
His will over hers, his force to be done.
Emorantag had heard Melleil’s screams through
the stone walls.
A glorious blade is drawn to the
throat of a sordid man.
His sword now pressed to Grisom’s neck.
Cowering in the dirt as a worm
Grisom twists and turns,
eyes searching for the justice behind his actions.
His ignoble hands still clasping Melliels
throat as the reins of a worn horse.
His tongue slithers behind his teeth,
poison seeps from his lips.
“It was mine to take, mine, my own.
Of mine kinship to beget.
Over Vertenia no longer shall
incompetent people rule.
An obliging arrangement of a love affair
to twine two influential kingdoms
has emitted nothing but a useless woman
with an unserviceable womb.”
Grisom’s nature has changed, fear left his mind.
He rose, pride dripping from every word.
A vile smile unfurled upon his ignoble face.
The repulsive excuses trailed from his jaws.
“ She is your lover, your dove ,your maiden.
Pray, may I inquire who had the
pleasure of dispatching your father from this world?
Too long had I waited, when the final submission of
my will had corroborated to me that the
splendid deed had already been accomplished.
It was your own dearest who engaged in the slaying
of your father by her very hands.
In the fantasies of the night without a watchful owl,
your lovely Melleil, the whore of Verteneia,
pierced Meiquers skin countless times.
Ecstasy bloomed in her very eyes,
and laughter escaped her luscious lips.
Do you not doubt her?
You remember that cold bitter night ,do you not?”
An old web reborn was cast into the heart of Emorantag.
Alvier allowed him to see the truth behind the
event that still pains him.
The light upon the kingdom had diminished,
The abodes of many occupied with the slumber of mortals.
The delights of the fantasy in ones minds were taunted.
Swaying over her mind, his hands became hers.
The once elegant nature became ravished
with the black claws of another.
Zhirchatove dwelled in Melleils mind, controlling
her every thought and action.
Seeking only one to lead into the damned circles of hell.
From the fabrics of her dress a blade escaped,
caressing her hands it took position.
The blade whose only fate shall ruin an heir.
Not a sound pierced the cold nights air.
Watching as if it were a play,
she persisted the slaying.
She could not stay her hand, nor rid herself of the
happiness behind her horror.
Awakening to the streams of spring sunlight seeping their
way through the curtains.
Grasping the darkness and drawing in the rays.
As a watchful god, the sun trickling through the room,
illuminating every corner of darkness.
The sun fell upon the bed, masked with blood.
In an endless sleep Meiquer laid,
his ivory skin painted with the same red
that once flowed warmly through his veins.
Now as cold as ice, the blood stained a beloved son’s cloths,
mourning for his father.
The screams of terror were drawn from Emorantag’s soul.
Through the pits of hell, unto the halls of heaven they are heard.
Tears upon his garments flow, his father gone,
and the murderer unknown to him.
Rage filled his entire being,
sadness consumes his frail heart.
Marble corridors are host to the forlorn thoughts
of a lost king.
Thoughts of blame stirred in his mind.
Possibilities were amassed,
one mans face shone through his mind as a beacon.
The foe’s previous actions had blamed a dearly beloved
and caused Emorantag to doubt.
It all seemed clear. Grisom had no heir,
his kingdom was crumbling beneath itself, and his only choice was
to expand his kingdom with a fertile womb.
Emorantag’s decision to make , his war to wage.
His lust for power had blinded him.
His eagerness to rule a vast new kingdom with his beloved
did not allow him to see the truth.
Her mask had fallen, and before his eyes he saw a
vile and repulsive woman.
For the first time she had disgusted every morsel of his being.
Olpenice’s webs had taken over,
enabling the mistresses to see
the consequences of the mortals actions
on Melleil who has realized Emorantag’s
love for her had ceased.
Utter chaos has shattered the world inside.
Despair has taken quarters within the swallowed self-pity.
All that has become of the once white dove
who loved a man vastly,
is the deadness of her beaten heart.
Squandering now with the eternally suffering,
wings broken, shattered heart.
All has been tossed into the raging war.
Gambling with lives,
passions and impulses consume,
wounding lovers’ fates that were once intertwined.
Leuron watched the morbid occurrences with disdain.
Within her mind she concocted an idea only Olpenice saw.
Within the night her deeds were done, the perfecting of a
flawed web.
Gemtyn’s eyes filled with the sad happenings
taking place.
Within her quivering hands spun four webs,
The lives of two loved betraying each other,
one a futile and ignorant sister.
The other a seemingly wretched women
whose deeds truly moral.
And the blackened heart of a fool.
Another whose very mind and heart
were wrought with confusion.
Olpenice’s actions proceeding valiantly.
Hidden within the shadows, Olpenice
Watched her creation destroyed.
Melliel’s life rewound, ruined.
Amidst Leuron’s fingers spun deceit, betrayal,
And the ruin of entire nations.
“Her heart shall still beat, her blood flowing
warmly through the veins lying beneath her
porcelain skin, never ceasing by another’s hand.
Wrong was it for her to die, wrong was
it for her to love only one.
Within her heart dwells another .
She fervently embraces him, her
infatuation for Grisom grows.
The child within her whom his spawn.”
Casting a new web in the place of Olpenice’s
Leuron’s actions were stayed.
Leuron’s entire being falls, her heart ceased.
Joining those suffering in the nadir of Hell,
she is to conform to Zhirchatove’s will.
Her frail figure meets the ground, her soul
descending.
Within the back of her corpse rested the
blade driven in by the hand of Olpenice,
She stood above Leuron watching the color
in Leoron’s skin fade.
“You ill conceived, futile being.
You didn’t understand what you were attempting”
Dragging the desolate body of an inept mistress
across the soil, Olpenice watches as the flames
lick the skin of Leuron.
They rest upon her hands and pale lips.
They devour her entire being, leaving only
three to rule over all.
Gemtyn’s webs continuing, Olpenice finding all
to be finished and Alvier‘s abundant with all passing times.
From the black abyss his ascension is seen.
An eclipse of black leathered wings outstretched
before Emorantags eyes.
Terror pulsated through his entire being.
Seeing Grisom as an imprudent imbecile unable
to accomplish such a noble deed,
Zhirchatove usurped his control.
Rising to earth to claim his throne.
His only task to slaughter Emorantag.
Each wave of his wings through the arid air
laid poison into every being.
Emorantag knew who and what Zhirchatove had
come to claim.
Grasping his sword he mustered every fragment
of valor within the depths of his heart.
Every body falling to that of a corpse lay ruined
with each passing of Zhirchatove.
Before Emorantag he stood, his hand slowly extending.
For with one touch the sad makings of
a king would succumb.
The thrust of Emorantag’s sword vibrated with
every strand of strength he possessed.
Upon contact his very being burned with the
malevolent nature of Zhirchatove.
Wounded, pride and body, Zhirchatove descended
to his fortress.
Never had a sword pierced his skin.
The valiant nature held by Emorantag at the moment
of all acclaimed loss had been the only power
able to wound such an exalted demon.
Webs unraveling, fates falling
The screams of innocents ringing
within ones ears.
All had failed the test. Only
one was left to create a more pure world.
Emorantag’s name transformed to that
of his eternal being.
The first man made from Emorantag’s very
hands and the woman wrought from
the ribs of Adam.
Again creation and all existence shall
thrive upon the earth.

What if you were blind and deaf?

The kite was two twined together pieces of smooth wood, like that of a crucifix, bound with fabric. I felt the fabric with the easy stitches, the way they spun and crossed over each other to form the most luxurious image that I had only the privilege to fancy in my mind. The thread played a haughty game of catch and release with itself that created the delicate pedals and the strong stem of the exquisitely conceived rose. I thought of the tedious ins and outs of the very life of the needle that was always united to the spool. I thought of fingers that spent day and night weaving it together, the sinewy fingers of my mentor and beloved friend, Gwendolyn. There was once a tail to the kite, but it is gone now as is Gwendolyn. It has been three years since her blood turned on her own body and she died of leukemia in her thirty second year of age. It has been three years since she taught me the dearest joy of what it is to fly.
I had never heard her voice, nor had I ever seen her, but I knew her nature. She held a kind and gentle disposition with a hint of patience. The utter fascination she held of the world later became mine as she wished to share the innovative ideas of our present era with me.
“Do you know what a kite is?”
The winds had shifted. They had changed from their previous state of howling mongrels that brought downfalls of heavy rain and murky clouds echoing upon their hind legs, to the blanket of warm air, with the ever present scent of newly blooming flowers that opened to taste the April showers. I had sat upon the bench wrought with wood and metal when Gwendolyn had again signed into my hand “ Do you know what a kite is?”. I signed to her that I had not the single idea of what it was. With that response the next thing I felt on my hand was not hers. Rather, it was something that had fabric and wood. I allowed my fingers to run across it as mice run through the woods searching every nook and cranny. The downy wood was tied together with a rugged sort of twine to form a shape similar to a cross. The fabric was strewn across it making a four sided shape. My scrutinizing hands searched the fabric for an answer that would tell me what this contraption was. I instead fell upon rows and fields of stitches, strung together in a certain pattern. Following the carefully grouped threads a flower emerged as the real flowers did in the spring. I recognized the shape of the pedals and the rough stem with thorns as sharp as knives. It was the same flower that Gwendolyn had first introduced me to. The threads formed a rose. From what I perceived to be the bottom of this contraption came two strings. One felt like a thin rope, as any other rope would feel in size and shape and was attached to a sort of spool that contained handles. On the other hand, the other felt like a silky ribbon, thicker and wider in size and taut at its end.
Gwendolyn’s hand had again reached mine, K-I-T-E. She had allowed me to explore every aspect of the material object that was in my hands. I knew, even then, that I had not a single idea of what this could do or what it would mean to me in the future.
“What does a kite do?”
That day Gwendolyn gave me the kite to take home. For hours I remember running my hands across it, feeling the rose on the kite and every detail that had been spun into the fabric. I could smell the dark maple wood and the freshness of the fabric that seemed to be cotton. The last thing that she had asked before I returned home was, “What does a kite do?”. I had no answer the moment she had asked me, nor an answer that night. I had fallen asleep with the question still fresh in my mind.
“What does a kite do, Lyla?”
The next day Gwendolyn and I had gone to the field again. She signed in to my hand, “Have you fingered out what a kite does?”.
I had signed to her that I did not know, but I knew what it must look like and how beautiful it really is. She took my hand and placed all my fingers on her mouth. I felt her smile as I did when I was a child. Just as she had done before when describing to me what it is to be happy. Lowering my hand she spelled a word, just the one word F-L-Y.
I remember the thoughts running through my mind at an insuperable speed. Linking the two thoughts together I had figured out that the kite and the word fly were somehow connected. Although, I still had the faintest idea of what ‘fly’ meant. Gwendolyn held my hand and tried to explain to me that what a kite does is fly. I knew what a kite was, but the fact that she had given me another meaning to it did not help me to understand. I felt the air all around me become a thick , heavy wool blanket that was unbearable. The sun was beating upon my neck and my impatience grew with every bead of sweat. Gwendolyn had seen that I was growing impatient and irritated with the fact of my inability to understand the concept. So she had proposed we take a stroll around the field. I remember the precious time that had passed before Gwendolyn delicately grasped my hand, signing two words, ‘Lyla’ and ‘walk’. She had given me a noun and a verb. Just as she did before and preceded to do when she had again signed the two words ‘kite’ and fly’ into my hand. At that moment I knew that fly was and action that the kite could do. I had become one step closer to figuring out what it had really meant and was now ecstatic with the pea sized progress I had achieved.
Seizing the opportune time, with my immeasurable curiosity and desire to understand the concept, Gwendolyn took the kite and my hand. She lead me up the what I could have sworn to have been Mount Everest. As we climbed my legs turned to lead, my breath became harsher and the air around me was not still as it was before. Upon reaching the top the gushes of wind pulled and tugged on our very beings. It was a rouge trying to push us off his territory. Our fabrics became twisted and mangled against our skin. Our once neat hair was tossed and turned as the perilous sea storms’ waves. Gwendolyn had again began signing in to my hand. She had asked if I felt the wind and that even though the wind seemed intolerable it would help me understand flying.
In my hands she placed the kite. She signed to me I that was on the edge of the hill and to count five seconds after the tug before I ran down the clear path set before me. I felt a tug in the other end of the kites rope and a surge of fear ran through my entire body. Three seconds had gone by, I was terrified. Four seconds I was hopeless and five seconds and my knees buckled as my body met the tall grass. I remember waking up to the awful scent of the smelling salts. I had felt the covers around me, turned and smelled the pillow assuring myself I was home. Gwendolyn had taken me home and was beside herself. I remember it oh so well, her hand quivering in mine. I had told her that I had been petrified. I didn’t know what was going to happen between the time I began running to the time I had hit the bottom of the hill. With that Gwendolyn had apologized and signed she would try to explain flying in another way in a few days. She explained that the physician said it was best if I rested for a few days.
I had not wanted to wait any longer. Thoughts had paced through my mind for two days and I could do nothing about them. I remember the utter silence around me on the third day. The thoughts had stopped and I was alone. I didn’t want to be a tree stump, I never wanted to not understand. There was only one thought that had entered my mind and had cleared the path for a swarm of countless others. ‘I would make the kite fly’ was the one thought that had entered my mind that day and the rest that followed were plans of how to make it fly. I remember thinking, ‘If I could make the kite fly I would understand what fly meant and everything would fall together like puzzle pieces’.
On the forth day Gwendolyn had returned and she was tired and frail. The day felt warm and crisp. The fresh grass swayed with the wind, but her hands remained cold and chalky. Before she began her lesson that day I remember asking her to take me to the top of the hill. She had agreed and the second time going on the hill my legs were like feathers, my breath was strong and the rouge of the wind held not a single strand of power over me. I had given the kite to Gwendolyn and took the spool end. She had known what I was attempting to do and allowed me to proceed. With the tug of the string I didn’t wait five seconds, I ran as the racers did. I passed through the wind as a ship through water. My legs ran faster and faster. I felt the ground passing under my feet at an immense speed. I didn’t know what to expect and the only thing that I had was hope. The hope that I would understand what flying was. I had run, there were no barriers, nothing to stop me and something tugged on the kite and I felt the kite no longer scratching upon the ground with its cat claws, but free. The kite was pulling up, not dragging down as it had before. It had been in the air, nothing was holding it down to the ground to make it walk, crawl, or run. It was flying. Joy had filled every morsel of my being. The kite was flying and I had made it do that. The next thing I knew, all I felt was a sharp tug on the rope that brought me to the ground followed by the insipid taste of dirt in my mouth. I didn’t know what had happened, and what I felt afterwards was something that had crashed down on my legs and had caused pain.
I had stood up, brushed myself off and realized the cause of the pain was the kite. It had given way to gravity and fell on me. Gwendolyn had gently grasped me, assuring me she was there. I had signed to her with excitement and utter happiness still in me that I made the kite fly. While we were walking up the hill again I had asked her “what made the kite stop, why did it fall?’.
In my hand Gwendolyn placed the spool, and then signed for me to drop it. I understood what gravity was. I understood why the spool fell, but what I didn’t understand was why had something that could fly and stay in the air fallen.
When we had reached the bottom of the hill Gwendolyn had given me an analogy. She had signed, or rather asked, “If you walk, does that not mean you are unable to fall anymore?” into my hand.
I hesitated and signed no of course not, one will always be prone to make mistakes, or to fall.
“ So does that not mean then that if something is able to fly, does it not have the same faults? Is it not still able to fall?”
“ It would be able to fall.”
Gwendolyn had taken me home that day and said she would return two days later with a surprise that I was sure to like.
The days were growing warmer and the winds were beginning to stay still. Two days had passed moving at the speed of molasses. Gwendolyn had finally returned, her movements slower and she was more frail. The holding of a hot coal would have amounted to touching her hand.
“ I promised you a surprise.”
I was exceedingly ecstatic, I didn’t know what was going to happen. All I knew was that when Gwendolyn said that she had a surprise she usually proposed an idea or something new to ponder.
“ Do you know what bird is?”
I didn’t know what a bird was and I, myself, was puzzled. I remember sitting in the sun trying to think.
“ You know what an animal is. A bird is an animal.” Gwendolyn had said nothing afterwards. She held her motionless hand in mine indicating a pause. Until she finally signed again, “ They can fly too.”
My mind was pacing, thoughts spurred in every direction imaginable. I knew that a kite could fly through the air. I had run a kite across plenty of fields knowing that it was just a kite and I had made it fly in the sky. The way I made it weave in and out of the clouds as the stitches upon the kite weaved through the fabric. To fly was to defy gravity, but with help. For the first time Gwendolyn had proposed an idea to me that scared me and at the same time I was intrigued. A living thing can fly, but how. I knew that we were living, plants were living and neither could fly. She had said that birds could fly.
Gwendolyn had signed to me and told me to hold out my hand perpendicular to the ground and not move. On my hand things were poking me like the thorns on a rose, but these were moving. I felt two sets of what I had nothing better to call them at that time than, ‘live thorns’. The fingers of my other hand moved up the live thorns. They were attached to a warm little thing that moved. It was alive, it wasn’t like the kite. I followed the coat of the petite animal that stood on my hand. The coat was drawn out into pieces all arranged together to form one larger version of the silk. The head of the animal was small and the closer I got to the front of the face I felt not a nose like on a dog or a human, but something entirely different. The animal had a protruded hard figure on its face that was not just one piece, but parted into two. The protrusion, of what I later found out to be its beak opened and closed revealing a mouth. This animal was a small bird.
Taking my hand, Gwendolyn rested her hand on top of mine forming one and we carefully pulled something from the bird. It was an extension of the bird that was able to hide. The extension held the same coat as the rest of the body and formed an arrow with a definite pointed end. Putting the extension down Gwendolyn had signed into my hand “This is what helps the bird fly. It is what makes it defy gravity. Just like your kite does with the aid of you, but a bird has no strings, it is free.”
To fly was to defy gravity, to be free in the air. There were no limitations, no barriers that need to be broken. I was happy, more than happy. The year was 1932 and I was twenty- three when Gwendolyn showed me what it is to fly. Shortly after Gwendolyn had passed and my next mentor showed to me the astonishing world of aviators.

Against Homosexuality

Homosexuality is against man’s nature. It is a rebellion against nature and yet
thousands upon thousand of men and women live such a vile and corrupt lifestyle. Within our liberal day and age many believe that homosexuality should be tolerated event to the point of being widely accepted, encouraged, and protected by new laws. Not only do liberal secularists believe this notion but also the liberal and cafeteria Catholics. Withinmy argument against homosexuality I will show that it is wrong and that it should not be tolerated, especially by those within the Church. I will begin by stating thathomosexuality goes against man’s nature. I will then state that something which goes against man’s nature will have many consequences such as AIDS. I will finally refute thearguments that gay “marriage” should be allowed just as a marriage between a man and awoman is allowed and the argument stating those that cannot help being homosexual. Throughout all of these arguments I will site various authoritative figures pertaining to each argument. In the end one will be able to see that homosexuality is at all times and in every which way wrong.
As I introduced this argument I made a very firm statement which I will now
address. I began by saying that homosexuality is against man’s nature and that it is a rebellion against nature. “ God created man and woman together and willed them for the other.” (CCC 371). Man is not made to have sexual attractions towards someone of thesame sex; rather, man is suppose to have attractions towards the opposite sex. “ Man andwoman were made ‘for each other’- not that God left them half made and incomplete: he created them to be a communion of persons (“bone of my bones…”) and complementaryas masculine and feminine.” (CCC 372).That is to say that by the very nature of a man and a woman they are created to be together. They are not created to be homosexuals.“Tradition has always declared that ‘homosexual acts are intrinsically disordered’ . Theyare contrary to the natural law” (CCC 2357).There is an argument that is posed againstman’s nature saying that “some cannot help being homosexual, it is the way they are and were born”. “It [homosexuality] has taken a great variety of forms through the centuriesand in different cultures. Its physiological genesis remains largely unexplained.”(CCC2357). Homosexuality, many say, is a deep seated root and people are born with thesepre-existing inclinations toward the same sex. “Homosexual persons are called tochastity. By the virtues of self-mastery that teach them inner freedom, at times by thesupport of disinterested friendship, by prayer and sacramental grace, they can and should approach Christian perfection.” (CCC 2359). If one has a predisposition towards homosexuality and is said to be Christians he must live a chased life and “These persons are called to fulfill God’s will in their lives and, if they are Christians, to unite to the sacrifice if the Lord’s cross the difficulties they may encounter from their condition.”. Just because one might have a predisposition towards something does not mean that theyshould act upon it or that it is an acceptable lifestyle. Homosexuality is still against nature
even if one believes they were born that way.
Something that is in accordance with nature would not bring about diseases
which kill the body. Just as homosexuality, which is contrary to nature, brings about
diseases that are both mental and physical. These diseases which stem from an abuse of ones sexual nature, such as homosexuality, often bring about AIDS, depression and all often leading to suicide. One especially prominent disease that stems from abuse on thenature of sex is AIDS. AIDS is notably seen in homosexual circumstances, especially with homosexual men. While the men move from partner to partner they are far more likely to spread the disease. “In California, at least 67% of HIV/AIDS cases are directly linked to male homosexual behavior...”( ) and “Nearly half of all people living with HIV in the U.S. in 2006 were [MSM].”(CDC HIV/AIDS Facts,CDC.gov/hiv). As the facts draw on it evident to see that promiscuous homosexualbehavior spreads the epidemic of AIDS. Within “California, where a faction wants tolegalize homosexual relationships as ‘marriage’, has experienced 69,000 deaths due tohomosexual men as well as the homosexual women move from partner to partner overshort periods of time, enabling the rapid transmitting of AIDS.
Many within our societybelieve that marriage is a right and nothing more. They
believe that marriage is another “hurdle” that you pass in life and it can be tried over and over again until they are finally satisfied. Marriage within the Catholic Church is a union,it is a sacrament within the Church. The domestic partnership of the homosexuals, often referred to as “gay marriage” is nothing like that of an actual marriage. Man is not to be attracted to the same sex, rather to the opposite. “Sexuality is ordered to the conjugal love of man and woman” (CCC 2360).Marriage is the union between a man and a woman
allowing procreation and therefore the teaching of their children. Marriage is not just twopeople who decide to live together, fornicate and then decide to leave whenever theywant. Especially not when they are of the same sex. “Everyone, man and woman, shouldacknowledge and accept his sexual identity. Physical, moral, and spiritual difference andcomplementarity are oriented towards the goods of marriage and the flourishing offamily life. The harmony of the couple and of society dependsin part on the way in whichthe complementarity, needs, and mutual support between the sexes are to be livedout.”(CCC 2333). That is to say a man and a woman are to accept that yes they are different, but there is a reason for that. Men and women are different and in marriage theycomplement each other. In complementing each other they bring forth life and stabilityrather than the gay “marriage” that is obviously unable to procreate. The gay “marriage”is nothing like an actual marriage and it completely closes the gap to new life.
Homosexuality in every which way wrong and is an intrinsic disorder among
many of the ‘liberated’ people. No one benefits from any of this erroneous behavior, rather the unnatural behavior of homosexuality has caused diseases, hardships and has sadly lead many to despondently follow in the footsteps of other homosexuals. “Those shameful acts against nature, such as were committed in Sodom, ought everywhere and always to be detested and punished. If all nations were to do such things, they would be held guilty of the same crime by the law of God, which has not made men so that they should use one another in this way” (Confessions 3:8:15 [A.D. 400]). Homosexuality is not beneficial nor charitable to any one, it is an act of hatred among others and most especially against one’s own human nature.

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Another Wordless Wednesday

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Rome was a famed city and was glorious in action, all of which made it's downfall that much more drastic. Many opinoins have been expressed on how its fall came about, one of which is Gibbons' opinoin that the fall of the Roman empire was brought about by the Chrisitian faith.

As always one needs someone or something to to blame. In this case ,as it was above said, Gibbons blames Christianity for the downfall of Rome.He states that Rome was large enough and would have been able to create a magnificent and unbeatable army if it had not been for the Christian doctrine. Gibbons goes on to say that the clergy of the Christians were passive in their virtues of society and mainly preached the doctrines of patience and cowardness. All of which resulted, as he says, in the military spirit being burried within the cloister. The revolutions, as Gibbons described the wave of Christianity , aroused the persectued sects to become the hidden enemies of Rome. It was only hastened when one of the Roman leaders, Constantine, converted to Christianity and thusforth brought Rome down with him.

Romes downfall, as I see it, was not solely based upon Christianity.The downfall was more or less based uopn the rejection of a new faith, and the fact that Rome had tired to grasp all that it could, therefor crumbling. The Romans, in a sence, worshipped their emperors and made them thier Gods. Christians believing as they do in only one supreme being would not swear oaths to the Roman encampments henceforth making it impossible for the Christians to fight for Rome and ceasing an unbeatable army to exist.

Rome had reached as far as as it could, it had taken in so many smaller countries that it beagn to crumble beaneath itself. It grew to such a vast extent that the people within it began to split, and the leaders disageed on the simplest of terms. The power was not evenly dispersed between the leaders resulting in a war of Rome against itself.

To blame one thing such as Christianity for fall of such a great empire as Rome is based upon the writers personal bias against Christianity. Although Christianity played a part in the downfall of the Roman empire, it was not the sole cause for the destruction. The authors personal opinion is not an objective case for the downfall of the Roman empire.

Spiderman 3

It hit the box office May 4th breaking all records with phenomenal showings , but was it really that great?We all know how it started, the genius teenage boy gets bit by a scientific spider giving him "spidy powers". He then finds out that it is his destiny to to save New York from all its evils. But when all else fails in the second movie he abandons his suit and his legacy, turning him into all but ordinary and finally decides to fall for his true love M.J. and go back to saving the world. In the third movie it was filled with heart pounding , edge of your seat, don't touch my popcorn moments as well corquy scenes that didn't even fit the movie, and the geeky ones that just made you feel sympathetic for Toby Maguire(Spiderman).

In the third movie we are faced with the question of choice, should spiderman go to the dark side or should he stay true to the red and blue. In the movie he becomes not so much evil but bad.As the bad spidy he has gained more power and a new sense of excitement. All of this not only plays part during superhero work, but in his daily life. Face it, they turned him emo.The side swept hair,black clothing, and oh so bad attitude, all that's missing is the eyeliner. But before he turns evil it shows his sweet side. Peter still loves M.J. and is going to purpose to her when all the sudden thew New Green Goblin, a.k.a Harry, comes into the picture and tries to kill Peter. He then gets a concussion which makes him forget everything after high school,including his fathers death. But they tell him he died, just not how. While all this is going on there is an escape convict running loose and stumbles upon a scientific sand site that turns him into the sandman. They really need more than the 2 by 2in. signs that say "please don't pass" and the three foot high plastic fence, that's why they have all the super powered villains.Then you get back to the story were Peter is about to be replaced by a new photographer, named Brock, and M.J.'s career is falling apart.

Harry then stumbles into his dads secret laboratory and then goes back to wanting to ruin Peters life. Harry gets M.J. to break up with Peter by blackmail. All the while Perter is freaking out because the suit is taking over his life only leaving him with chaos. He finally gets the suit off by crashing into the church bells where he was hiding out for some time. Coincidentally, Brock, was there and the suit took over him and turned him into Venom. As the movie goes on Venom is terrorizing New York with the help of Sandman and Spiderman is the only one who can stop them. The New Green Goblin has it out for Spiderman too, but he decides to help spidy instead because he can't kill him if he's already dead; and it wouldn't be that nice of a story either. In the end Spiderman gets the suit off of Brock and he destroys it along with Brock who was emotionally attached. The Sandman gets away, but not before telling his side of the story about Uncle Ben's true death, which was an accident. And last but not least and terribly sad Harry dies while defending Peter in battle. All in all, I give this movie four out of five stars.

Society in 2007

As we go about our daily lives pursing what we strive for in life we have our typical worries to think about. Parents worry about their children's health, grades, the bills, and their children's happiness and overall well being. While teens worry about the fads, sometimes grades, games and their social lives. While kids are just kids, thinking about games, toys, friends and for some school. But in our world and society it is not easy, par say, to worry about the everyday things anymore. We now have so much more added onto our plates that we must, worry, contemplate, and pray for. The once absurd things to think about have now become everyday things to ponder over. Parents can not send their kids to school anymore without worrying if they will be shot, as it has happened more often now, or if they will be kidnapped or try and be bought out by drugs. Teens cant go to school anymore without always being on guard, without thinking if there school is going to get shot down, or even being made fun of because they are religious. Children have been subjected to horrific things on video games, in movies and even at school.
One must wonder were all of this is coming from and were all of it is heading.Most of it, if not all, is societies lack of morals .We live in a world that tells everyone whether it is through magazines, the movies or T.V that they must worry only about their looks. A world that tells you yes it is alright to be gay, to not get married, and that more than two kids per family is absurd.A world that tells you yes you can have an abortion, use birth control and that sex before marriage is alright, as long as it makes you fell better.As long as you, yourself are happy.
Yes that's the phrase the world can now use, as long as your happy. That is what it has turned into. So what do we say to the murderers in prison who felt so ecstatic when they murdered or raped someone? Do we say it is all fine and dandy, or do we sentence them to life? It may be "outrageous" to compare all this to such a thing as murder, but that is what society has done, that is what our world has turned into.Abortion is homicide. Its there plane and simple, it is murder.Divorce is hurting people and splitting whole families apart. Consumption of money is driving people mad and causing them to go as far as killing and hurting others for more. Telling people they must weigh a certain amount in order to be beautiful and loved is causing them to be anorexic and bulimic, which leads to death. Telling people if they don't have a certain nose or chin they must get plastic surgery or lipo leads them to undergo numerous life threatening surgeries. Just for the sake of others opinions. In our day and age the world is saying that there is no God, we originated from the big bang and can govern ourselves. The world needs people that will step up and say something, not be suppressed buy the rest of the world for saying what they believe. If the world and our society don't turn around now, there wont be anything to go back onto, no set of morals, rules, or regulations and the world will go into utter havoc over something as simple as a choice.

The world around us

So many of us wonder what we are going to eat for dinner, hoping its not more meatloaf or another casserole. We are all wondering what matters most to us, for some its the dinner theory, for others its clothes, video games, friends, school, even paying the bills and getting your taxes in on time. Of course we worry about those things because it is what matters most to us for some it is wrongly based with material things and with others it is there family, the family that they have grown to love and cherish.But if we were to stop, turn off the T.V's, the ipod's, and the games we shall see there are others in the world that have hardships that they have to live with everyday.The U.S has had it pretty easy, of course we have been blessed with a multitude of things that some have taken for granted, while others have counted them. There is a war in Iraq many, if not all people know about,there is communism in North Korea, and starvation as well as genocide in Darfur, but that is just a small portion of what is going on in the world.
Lets start with the war in Iraq, something most know about. People are being bombed on the streets , not only men, but women and children. Journalists are being taken, held hostage, tourchered and even beheaded. There are peoples sons , daughters, nieces ,nephews and grandchildren, peoples families,out there risking there lives all because someone decided to ram two planes into the twin towers. So many people died that day and so many are dying today. There is controversy over whether or not the U.S. should stay in Iraq,some say it is helping while others say it is just making more problems. I say it is all based upon your personal beliefs about war and all that have died in 9-11 and the deaths that have gone on during the war. But is it really worth the sacrifice?
Then there is North Korea, there leader has subjected them to limited knowledge of the outside world.They are unable to do what they please, even in their own homes.They must ask permission to read certain books, they can't have anything from outside of their country. When tourists come they are told to stay away, they are told nonsense about Americans and they way the rest of the world is.They even have to ask permission to go out of town, even for just a few hours or miles. They are unable to have cars and can't even color their hair a different color or see a western movie. Although their leader has done most, if not all the things he is depriving his people of. People have gone "missing" there and no one bothers to ask, for fear that they will be killed. A country that is completely controlled by there government with no freedom.
And last but not least amongst the issues that I must mention is Darfur.The Sudanese government ans ethnic militia called "Janjaweed" have been in an armed conflict with rebel groups called the SLM and the SLA ( Sudanese Literation Movement/Army) and the Justice Equality Movement (JEM) since early 2003. As part of its operations against the rebels, government forces have developed a campaign of "ethnic cleansing" against the civilization population who are members of the same ethnic group as the rebels. The Sudanese government forces and Junjaweed militia burned and destroyed hundreds of villages. They have killed and caused the deaths of 200,000 people and have raped and assaulted hundreds of women and girls. As of January 2007 about two million displaced people live in camps in Darfur, and at least 232,000 have fled to neighboring Chad where they live in refugee camps.Thousands upon millions need food, clothing and shelter because the conflict has damaged the local economy, markets and trade in Darfur.The rebel allegiances have split and shifted since the conflict began in November 2005 when the SLA split into two fracture's.Now as of early 2007 there are more than a dozen split fractures of the SLA and the JEM . The rebel groups are well divided with some supporting the May 2006 Peace agreement and then there is the majority of others who refuse to sign the agreement. Some of them operate under an umbrella cooperation known as the National Redemption Front (NRF). Although they have settled down some and are getting help, it is still extremely bad.
All of this is just a smidgen of what is going on in the world.Yes the U.S. has it bad, but not nearly as bad as the some other countries do. People are being killed in Nicaragua for there shoes! Yes there are crisis' in the U.S as well, I'm not saying there aren't. But it is far better than what others have around the world.We have controlled settings and a government that supports us, not one that is against us.

Intelligence v.s. Perception

Intelligence as many would say would be your typical street smarts or book smarts,but it is far more than that. It is the ability to learn and solve problems .If you have intelligence you have intellect and vice- versa.These two things enable you to reason between situations. While perception is the ability to perceive. Perceiving is knowledge obtained by becoming aware of things and situations through your senses.True perception stems from security, self esteem comes from plain perception, whereas insecurity comes from a lack of identity or bruised perception. It is all in the way you look at things, the way you see yourself and less importantly the way the world sees you. Perception is not everything to an individual, it can either help you by finding your own true self, or it can ruin you (which is what it does to most) by making you do whatever the world around you does.Like liberals. Intelligence will allow you to see things as the truly are, while perception from ones mind may be different to anothers'.Sensation stems from perception. It is a feeling of immense gratitude, it is a sense of being highly pleased. It is what allows you to accept a compliment or a good deed when people perceive what they see and put thoughts into action. All of this call upon attention, which heeds others and allows you and others around you notice their surroundings.Your memory plays apart in all of this by allowing you to remember things that have happened to you and others whether they are significant or not. All of these make associations, or connections within ones mind which kicks in your intelligence and the ability to reason as well as turning on your perception to enable you to have a secure or insecure idea on how you are to base things. And finally your imagination is what allows you to compile all of these things together within your head and make up day dreams or just dreams based upon your range of intelligence and the way you perceive situations.It is what allows someone to make up stories of princesses being rescued by a handsome prince of the world going into utter chaos over a small situation. That is probably what all those pause( ll ) commercials are for. And your attention calls all of it to mind.

As we go about our daily lives doing what we do everyday we do not stop to think of our train of thoughts and the way we look at things as easy as intelligence verses perception. But if we were to really stop and think which is really the superior one. If we were to really stop we would see that intelligence out ways perception by far. It is better to base your thought upon what you know to be true by your own beliefs than to let a whole world govern you. A world that has grown to know and love images only leaving it with scornful regrets. It would be better to be the moral and virtuous person with intelligence living life than to have everything based upon the perceptions of a world that has already fallen through the cracks.

Mom

There when the sunlight seeps through the curtains grasping the darkness with its hands and awakening her to a beautiful summers day. She is there through thick and thin, and never regretting a day in her life, this glorious day is presented to her.

A day in which we acknowledge all all she has done for us. All the headaches, backaches, and days she wanted to pull out her hair, but took a deep breath, put on a smile and lent us an ear when she had none left. She is there to see all our "cartwheels", dances-no matter how bad they are, and accept with a smile every picture that we paint. She is the one to tuck us into bed with a book and a prayer, to be stern when she needs to, and to love you when you feel as if no one else in the world does. She is the one who brought us into this world and prays every night and day we will be safe and God will lead us the right way when she feels she can't.

Today we honor and shower her with all our love, thanks and prayers. Though words can not express all that our hearts desire to say and how grateful we are to have her, the least we can say is Happy Mothers Day.

Reunions and Goodbyes

Loads of tears, welcome backs and sadly, after only a few hours, there were goodbyes.My mums twin sister's son came down from Montana after three years and most of the family came to see him.The day kicked off with us picking him up at his grandmothers and after cheerful "hellos," "we've missed you so much," and my dad happily adding "You need a hair cut," we were off to our house for some pizza and catching up. After cousins yelling, screaming, running up and down the stairs for a couple hours we all decided to calm things down and show him around downtown.With my mum bringing the video camera and taping we have loads of memory lane to stroll down and of course some bloopers.We showed him the city lights and all the greatness of Sacto (secretly trying to convince him to stay,) we finally made way back home, and watched the video. And in all the "do I really look like that?" and all the questions and laughs everyone has after watching themselves on tape we asked if he would like to live in Montana or down here(letting our secret out that we really wanted him to stay.) He smiled and replied with the memorable and hippiest of answers that I have grown to know and love, "its too polluted and you can see the stars better in Montana." The dreaded hour came when we had to say goodbye, and of course my mum started crying, and me taking after her, did as well. In the end all we saw was the back of my aunt Sarah's car driving away and my cousin pretending to escape.

Learning for everyone

There are those in the world that teach and there are those that learn. Although, it is said that when you teach you learn and when you learn you teach. With the knowledge that has been bestowed upon you it is likely that you wish to share it with someone you know or just anyone (even your dog will listen).The saying when you learn you teach and when you teach you learn, I would say, applies to basically everyone in the world who has a brain. There are millions and billions of people in the world with vast assortments of learning and teaching that if I said everything about every one I would probably not only bore you, but myself. Though there is one specific type of teaching and learning that I want to target, and that is homeschooling. Homeschooling isn't at all like your stereotypical stay at home"freak kid" or secluded child that everyone thinks about. Being a homeschooling child for only a few months I have learned so much, not only your basic curriculum of math, science and so on, but about the world around me, and about the value of family and friends. Almost every teacher that you talk to will say that they learn so much from their students, and vise-verse, but I think that homeschooling teachers benefit more when they are teaching. If you are homeschooling your teachers are your parents, some may think that wouldn't be fun, but it actually is. When I say that when you learn you teach and teach you learn it mostly applies to the homeschooling group because your parents don't have to be total brainiacs to teach, or know every answer in the world to every question that you have, they still teach you. In return, they too learn or have their memory refreshed when teaching you. All in all you will learn and they will learn from you and everyone in the world will be in it too, whether it be directly or in directly. The whole paragraph above, as you can tell, is about homeschooling and the learning/teaching experience, but what about the way you are taught, or the way others teach. Take for example, I have a Latin class taught by Father Lino. Now, you have had your teachers that try to make the class and learning experience fun so that it will go in one ear and hopefully stay. They try all of these projects and movies and basically everything you can think of, but Father LIno teaches latin with enthusiasm and is himself, which makes it easier to learn becuase you're not worried about a tense teacher. Since for most in the class it is their third language and for some a second and others have taken the class prior to this year he teaches in a way that will help everyone. This being my first year taking Latin I didn't know what to expect, and certainly didn't expect to laugh and learn so much. When I walked into class and saw Father Lino standing there and the rest of the class in their seats I expected it to be a full on lecture and to have a lot of homework. I was wrong about one thing, the lecturing. He started the class with a story written in Latin, and as he read we went along and he helped us translate. If the word was climb you would look up and see Father Lino speaking in latin the words, and climbing the walls, if the sentence is the dog devours the food, he grabbed anything around him and pretend to eat it. Being in the latin class so far has been fun and I've learned a little latin also.The way people teach and learn is important. Although it may seem funny when you see your teacher, and priest for that matter, climing walls, barking, and falling on the floors, you actually learn and remember when you see and hear the word acted out, what actually went on. Now I'm not saying that is the only way to teach, but it is a hillarious one and one that has helped not only me, but the rest of the class learn latin pretty fast.